When I started making tarot cards about four years ago, I figured it would be a one and done thing. Well, all this time later and there's still a lot more that I want to explore through the cards. Tarot plays with narrative—employing nonlinear storytelling that the reader can revisit infinitely and get different perspectives. This deck looks at the societal construct that is gender and the beauty of the human figure through a horror lens.


As a kid, I was entranced by the "bad guys". From Doctor Blight in Captain Planet and Natasha Fatale of Rocky and Bullwinkle fame, to Ursula the Sea Witch—the strongest female characters of my 90s childhood were evil women.

Being the good girl, in my little mind, seemed to always align with a compromise in freedom. You couldn't be single or chose to be child free without regret and loneliness. Instead, you had to settle for "Prince Charming" and ride off into the sunset. Being a girl meant something specific that never fit right.

At fifteen, I found art and the queer goth kids at the club. It changed everything. While not having the words for it—gender was clearly a social construct and cultural expectations were the oppressive tools of the patriarchy. I embraced Byronic heroes and gothic horror because I saw myself there. I didn't need a "happy ending". This however, came at a cost to my own self-esteem. You had to either be a "good girl" or a "bad" one and "bad girls" couldn't be happy. 

As an adult, I learned about the tropes that villianized not only white women, but queer people and people of color. As I waded into defining my own queer identity I still leaned on my gothy heroes.

This tarot deck is a negotiation. I want to embrace the devils, the witches, the ghosts, and the vampires who welcomed me. I want to celebrate their power and the beauty of gender fluidity. I want to remember my teachers and realize their humanity in the cards. Except, not every association is perfect. I'm choosing to burn the association of "failure" or even "damnation" with these "bad guys". You can be a weird, mysterious, and spooky kid and love your body and your life. 

My characters and the references I make in the deck are flawed—because I am. Because we all are. 

Introducing CULT: A Tarot Deck

I’m really excited to introduce the newest installment to the KI11ERPANCAKE tarot card collection, Cult: A Tarot Deck. This one dives into queer and feminist themes but is drenched in horror references—kinda like an episode of American Horror Story.

The Suits

Swords are ghosts

Wands are devils

Coins are witches

Cups are vampires

While I draw the deck

  • Prints are available of each card as it's completed for the deck. See available prints.
  • Regular blog posts sharing drawing tutorials and resources that I enjoy using (reference resources, brushes, etc.)
  • There will not be a printed guide for this deck to reduce the cost of production, shipping, and save some trees. Instead, I will have a digital resource through this website. It will be a mobile-ready PDF with bookmarks for easy reference. I am also creating a quick reference for people who want something to print out while they read cards.

Be a Card in the New Deck!

As a special pre-order option I have spots open in the deck for you to purchase. You can either become a card yourself or we can collaborate on designing a card! I have offered this in the past and y’all seemed to love it so I am excited to do this again. Learn more here.

When will it be done?

As of August 12th I am about half way done with the drawings! The next step will be to prepare the deck for printing and then create the guide. My hope was to have decks shipped before Halloween but right now the news is looking really grim for the US Postal Service and I am concerned this will delay the supply chain and getting the decks shipped out to customers. Therefore, I am pushing back my tentative shipping date to late November 2020 to ensure I have enough time to get things in the mail and on their way to customers. If you have further questions please email hello@ki11erpancake.com.

May 26, 2020 — Genevieve Barbee-Turner

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